Series of a Poem - 1st and 2nd Installments

I Don't Want to Fall in Love

With the shakes

I awake

To the reality

Slipping away

As I debate

Whether or not to stay

Reason prevails

Of course

And I hop on a plane

Hoping to have my chance

Someday

The guy

Barely knows I'm alive

And probably cares

Even less than an ant's body weight

But with my ambition

I could have him

Subjected to submission

The truth is

I'm no longer the bitch

That insinuates herself

Into a man's every thought

And very being

Taking a break

From the sidelines

I remember his claim

As is mine

"I don't want to fall in love."

Its a Fact

I awake

With the shakes

I remember

He was here

But not much else

If he had stayed

Even a little while longer

I may have forgiven

On all the blunders

He made

I don't want to fall in love

Maybe someday

With the father of my children

But till then

I'll live in singledom

Saluting my womanhood

Like I said,

I don't want

That falling feeling

There're too many to count

Over more years

Than ever before

Would have fell

Too many times

Without an assurance

Of regaining my balance

Their eyes

Still seem to watch me

While I sleep

Almost like in a dream

I awake in

To find them

Lying in bed

With their hands

On their heads

Wondering,

"Why me?

Why with this girl

The one

That won't love me back"

Because they all know

Its a fact

I don't want to fall in love