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How I adore you
I say so
For adoring is all
But worship
In my mind

I care for you
As a caress
Cradles my deep sense
That I will
Be remembered
By those who knew
Me with you

Like second nature
My veins yearn
For the tickle
Of your arms
Holding my skin tightly

The events
That shattered
Our hopeful union
Has gained help
Beyond my influence

All this
Must cease
Not tailored to please
This self-indulgence
That gives place
To the dominance
Of a Higher Power

So I must settle
For less
That the grandeur
Of the Creator's
Essence
And presence
That promises
A virginal conscience

Always, I Will

For years
I mocked
Our friendship
Thought nothing
Of the teasing
Glances
Here & there
But never much else

As Patience
Took its toll
On relentless feelings
Left undiscovered
A quiet night
Withdrew the clouds
Around my emotions
Now

Always, I will
Long for
The way I feel
In your arms
Always, I will
Remember
How long it took
For us to start
Always, I will
Adore you

I pleaded
With God
To make
Our hearts one
I'm weak
Not hearing your voice

Told myself
I'll never love
I was right
What I feel
Is too deep
To describe in words

Always, I will
Long for
The way I feel
In your arms
Always, I will
Remember
How long it took
For us to start
Always, I will
Adore you

I've found
What I've dreamed
As a little girl
Staring at the stars
Knowing one
Would guide me
To you

How

I am feeling
Things that are
Not real
Can't think
Without your face
Recurring in each thought

Like a sentence
Missing a noun
I know
I am without
Meaning
Being separate
From your heart

How
Did this happen?
There is no sense
In desire
For what is absent
I need the antidote
To cool my infatuation

Haven't I learnt
The lesson
That reason
Must have place
In each case
Of emotional entanglement

I'm embarrassed
To say
I have fallen
For one
Holding little respect
Directed toward
His little friend

Getting up to leave
All that's not real
To suffocate
As the door
Is locked
And its key
Slipped out of reach

Denying a part of me
Should be easy
I never knew it
Till caverns of heat
Bled
A sincere pledge
To always want
The relation
I can't
Ever be -
Your other half