This is Bad

So there was this guy, right. I mean Mr. Right for all the right reasons. Then it was over because I was young and stupid to think another one like him would come along. We did not speak after the break-up. Things were bad.

I am 27 now. Light years away from that incident and I feel young and stupid still! I have no real trade or talent per se but I somehow I am surviving like that disco song every bitter woman requests when out with her girlfriends. It's been a long hard road.

Not sure now if I am better now or worse just less of myself. Today, I said something out loud for the first time in my life. "I am living for everyone else except me." This is my life but I got too scared to live it. After messing up so badly with something so good. It's like I can't trust something as precious as life to me. The mistake was huge! Almost cost me everything because I stopped caring.

I am begining to care again. Not just for everyone else but for myself. I'm not sure what is going to happen ... but it is going to be big but not like before - this time it will be good.